thinking of you....

"Thinking Of You"

Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one
I still got the seed

You said move on
Where do I go
I guess second best
Is all I will know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes

You're like an Indian summer
In the middle of winter
Like a hard candy
With a surprise center
How do I get better
Once I've had the best
You said there's
Tons of fish in the water
So the waters I will test

He kissed my lips
I taste your mouth
He pulled me in
I was disgusted with myself

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into...

You're the best
And yes I do regret
How I could let myself
Let you go
Now the lesson's learned
I touched it I was burned
Oh I think you should know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Oh won't you walk through
And bust in the door
And take me away
Oh no more mistakes
Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay...

did you....?or do you...?

it has been few miserable days....hoping it will not continue....hoping things will be better....so....

another sad day...

why?.....u figure it out yourself....can you?....would you?....please....

hey....what's up with that?

so....feeling kinda upset today....not the whole day.....why?

sad yestersay....happy today.....hope to be happy in future always....

it was a scary thoughts that my moon (izz) has a fever....he was fine yesterday morning..then in the noon my mom called to tell me that my moon has a high fever....was going to panic for a moment...but got my head together with my heart....told mom to take his temp first then give the previous medicine that was given to prevent fever after a shot and to give him a cooler pad for fever (bye-bye fever by hisamitsu)heheheh...
....then....

men and menses.....?

it bugs me all the times when men and menses don't come together.....i hate it when they don't see eye to eye....we women hurt

on sick leave today.....no work...

sadly today got a really bad heartburn...it hurts real bad...can't stand on my own 2 feet....have to be carried today...but not that dramatic though...ehehehehe..anyway....

miss him so much....

my oh my....why this burden my heart...every time i'm awake he'd be wandering in front of me...my thoughts are constantly at him...wondering is he thinking of me too...does he miss me as much as i miss him....does he love as i love him so dearly....more than the world could bear my dear....it burdens me so much....and sometimes it does hurt going to work.... can't leave him....want him in my arms...yet when he's angry felt upset at him....but then he smiles...that just melt my heart....my dear izz....

hmmmm....talking to the moon......

today...no moon to talk too.....got home earlier few minute than before...not speeding...heheheheh...then found my moon on my mom's lap...hehehhe..my izz=my moon...hehehehehe...anyway...really love that song....seriously....listened to it for 30minutes non-stop...hahahahahha....

vobulary for today...confidence...

a friend of mine (from the states) once said to me...."for a scarfed girl like you....you have such self esteem...compare to mine is low"....well... i missed her so much....thank you andrea....if it weren't for i wouldn't know that...anyway...for me...i do believe that so much i should, i would and i could, then i shall, i will and i can....these words made me believe that i believe in me so much that the world could bare...heheheheh..not reallylah....hhehehehe...but good enough not to let anyone make me feel bad about myself.....but to think thoroughly about this....i do lack some in some matters...hehehhehe...don't want to say much about....afraid someone will use against me later...heheheheh...enough about me...so...for everyone who come across my blog....boost up your confidence level for only you know how you would, should and could do it and best in your on way...never let anyone beat you down to the ground...it's not really your fault or problem...it's them who tried to make you fell bad....for me they're just jealous people....heheheheh...they're the one who did not believe that they can do it....anyway...what ever you do...you do it your way and do the very best and much better...set you pace high as high up to the sun...coz if you do fail...at you fall at the moon....if not the sun...then aim for the moon..then at least you'll fall in the blue sky....if not the moon...aim for the blue sky....the at least you'll fall in the coulds....hehehheheh...if not the blue sky...aim for the coulds...and this goes on to the mount everest and so on.....but remember not to aim for the grass...for that you'll definitely fall on the ground......however...i you do fall to the ground...please do get up...don't give up...and believe in yourself that you can...and it's okay to cry sometimes...but remember....get up and do better next time around...and believe...coz the world is yours to have....heheheheheh....

here we go again...vocabulary for today..FEELINGS..

FEELINGS... so what it is really about this feeling.....?what really to feel about.....?what's really up with these feelings we have...?why are there so much feelings...?so...how to answer these so many questions about feelings?....heheheheh...so let's brainstorm...hehehhehe...well we can do much about only to cope with it responsibly....coz...if not we ourselves will pay the price...heheheheh...anyway....it's a very humongous gift from god...Allahuakbar....really...can't really question god why we human were born with these feelings.....

misses you much......

i miss you.....izz...hehehhehehe...

talking to the moon....

you=moon?....heheheheh...like this song....wishing you were here....you have always been here....always...in my heart...izz...



this one is very cute...adorable video....



here's the lyric....hehehehhe

I know you're somewhere out there
Somewhere far away
I want you back
I want you back
My neighbors think
I'm crazy
But they don't understand
You're all I have
You're all I have

Chorus:

At night when the stars
light up my room
I sit by myself

Talking to the Moon
Trying to get to You
In hopes you're on
the other side
Talking to me too
Or am I a fool
who sits alone
Talking to the moon

I'm feeling like I'm famous
The talk of the town
They say
I've gone mad
Yeah
I've gone mad
But they don't know
what I know

Cause when the
sun goes down
someone's talking back
Yeah
They're talking back

Chorus:

At night when the stars
light up my room
I sit by myself
Talking to the Moon
Trying to get to You
In hopes you're on
the other side
Talking to me too
Or am I a fool
who sits alone
Talking to the moon

Ahh Ahh,
Ahh Ahh,

Do you ever hear me calling?
Cause every night
I'm talking to the moon
Still trying to get to you

In hopes you're on
the other side
Talking to me too
Or am I a fool
who sits alone
Talking to the moon

I know you're somewhere out there
Somewhere far away

i like this...hehehehhe

i do love you....always...izz...



It's always been about me, myself, and I
I thought relationships were nothing but a waste of time
I never wanted to be anybody's other half
I was happy saying I had a love that wouldn't last
That was the only way I knew 'til I met you

You make we wanna say
I do, I do, I do, do do do do do do doo
Yeah, I do, I do, I do, do do do do do do doo
Cause every time before it's been like
Maybe yes and maybe no
I can't live without it, I can't let it go
Ooh what did I get myself into?
You make we wanna say I do, I do, I do, I do, I do, I do

Tell me is it only me
Do you feel the same?
You know me well enough to know that I'm not playing games
I promise I won't turn around and I won't let you down
You can trust I've never felt it like I feel it now
Baby there's nothing, there's nothing we can't get through

So can we say
I do, I do, I do, do do do do do do doo

Oh baby, I do, I do, I do, do do do do do do doo
Cause every time before it's been like
Maybe yes and maybe no
I won't live without it, I won't let it go
What more can I get myself into?
You make we wanna say

Me, a family, a house, a family
Ooh, can we be a family?
And when I'm eighty years old I'm sitting next to you

And we'll remember when we said
I do, I do, I do, do do do do do do do
Oh baby, I do, I do, I do, do do do do do do do
Cause every time before it's been like
Maybe yes and maybe no
I won't live without it, I won't let us go
Just look at what we got ourselves into
You make we wanna say I do, I do, I do, I do, I do, I do,
Love you

time is gold?

so....how much gold is now?believe it or not....it's rm162 for 916 gold....sooooo......expensiveEXPENSIVE....EXPENSIVE.... so, it that how much time worth?????...not....right?...so how do we really measure time?....while we are so busy with how's our life is....(duniawi)....what about our afterlife then?.....so questions already eh...hehehehehhe....so let's see this through my eyes (which are not so big,not so small,,,just nice for my loved ones to adore me...hehehehhe)...i would like...yet i think i should measure time with the time i have before i closed my eyes....that's how i want to measure the worth of time...therefore...i'll spend it more wisely.....this year...i cant really believe that every year my age adds up...hehehehhe....boleh ke kurang?...hehehhe..i dont think so...it will always adds up....another year...add 1 more number....wow...i feel so old yet so alive.....i'm alive...I'M ALIVE...I'M ALIVE... hehehehhe....so....time worth how long you have lived....really....how have i lived then?....it's been really good....in fact better than ever....thank Allah for that....alhamdulillah.....n may i live to see my family grows even bigger...hehehhehehe...amin....
so that's it about time for me.....it's time to rest my lovely fingers now....hehehehhe....

lazy....

i'm not in the mood...so lazy....

vocabulary for today is 'remember'

so...suddenly i remember my past assignment for comparative literature...it reminds me so much of how badly i wanted to be a writer...hehehhehe...and then suddenly i want to become a poet (that's why i try to write a poem just now)hehehehhehe....and now remembering back with what i've written in my assignment...i can't believe that i actually wrote those assignment (not that i copied it off from someone, believe me it's mine, it's originally from my thoughts and some academic reviews). the assignment i wrote about was a comparison of art writing...comparison of emotional writing...comparison of author writing...we were ask to compare a book and a movie which is similar in some way....alright. now i don't remember as much (to add how bad i remember it, i forgot where is the assignment now...hehehhee)okay, so it was between the work of a novel entitled 'salina' one of the greatest work of a. samad said or maybe a book called 'autobiography of a geisha' by sayo masuda....and the movie...of course the 'memoirs of a geisha'....anyway it was a great experience writing about it...and to add some spice to it...i had a reason why i remember about it....it was an assignment that i had misinformed (i misunderstood actually...hehhhe)about the duedate...hahahahha...thought it was the next week but turn out to be tomorrow...gosh...how i manage to finish it on time....i've not slept that day i found that the duedate was tomorrow...so i stayed up until 5 in the morning....hehehehheehheh...last minute work...hehehhe..not that i've not done it before...but it was shocking to me to find out the duedate was the next day...good thing i found about it sooner....anyway i already prepared all the reviews..it's just that i haven't started writing the assignment...hehehhe...anyway...that's it for now.....
this blogwriting have been much of diary writing....need to remind myself that not to jote down things purposely..just to give some thoughts about things i thought about...nothing serious though....for we all have memories to remember....so remember that remembering things remind us of great things about ourselves and it reminds us to be better than ever....and do learn from mistakes....till then...

trying very hard.....

i'm trying here...do help me....
i'm trying very hard to forget about you...
i'm trying very hard to forget about us...
i'm trying very hard to forget about it...
the more i try the more i remember....yet....
i'm trying very hard to remember about you...
i'm trying very hard to remember about us...
i'm trying very hard to remember about it...
the more i try the more i think about it....and now...
i'm trying very hard not to think about you....
i'm trying very hard not to think about us....
i'm trying very hard not to think about it....
i'm trying very hard... for i've sinned...
so help me God...

what if....?

what if.....?
this question should've not exist at all....
it ruins everything....yet it could alter everything....

as much as....

i can't explain much about it....because...
as much as you want it to be real....it won't do much to how things are now....
and as much as you want me to be yours wholeheartedly....it won't change how have you do unto me....
and yet...as much as i want this to be better than ever...it won't change the facts how much things have changed now....
but please...never ever doubt that these feelings i have for you isn't real....for it is and will always be for eternity....and that how much i to you....

it hurts like hell...

what hurts?
love hurts....



tell me about it....
it hurts like hell....
especially the one that we couldn't have
love from the past.....
but thank god for the love that i have now....
it never heals....
but it's getting better...pray for it...hope for it...strive for it....
my love now....



my only Izz....

i need you more than you know....

want u more than i can bare....
spoil me more than you can....
love me more than you want to....

saddd...........

it's sad sometimes when we pity ourselves more than we praise ourselves.....

saddd...........

it's sad sometimes when we pity ourselves more than we