Thursday, August 2, 2012

being an ICTL teacher...hahahah

see the thing is....my friend has been complaining how am i an ICTL teacher yet i rarely updata my blog....hahahha....so the thing is that i'm not really an ICTL teacher..but the school believe that it is my best subject to teach since i'm quite good with computers....anyway...that's not really true though...i only know a bit...being a humble me...hahhaa...i mean really...i'm not that good..well...i've spread my knowledge anyway...now i know how to use the microsoft publisher...hehehheh...anyway...i'm still learning....so as my friend requested...this is the pamphlet i made using the publisher....


and this one too....there is a story behind this two....and i'm not proud of it....





 anyway...i love making this as long as is not a last minute task...hahah....and also i like making bookmarks....and in some ohter day...i like thinking about them and how i'd like to make them...hahhahha....so far i'm just going for the old ways, the usual kind of bookmarks... and for that i've downloaded lots of picture and images just to have new ones and maybe the ones that related to it....

and i've also downloaded lots of new fonts....hahahha....loading them is a lot of work too....anyway i do enjoy it very much....hahahhahaa...and oh yeay....i did this only using microsoft word....hahahahhah



 

Wednesday, July 18, 2012

you've got to be kidding....

i have start my day as the usual today.... so how come this happen....i mean come on....this one not supposed to happen..especially to me....how kind i've been to you and this is what i get....you've gotto be kidding....you're joking right?....god.....how can i explain this....i am not supposed to to think and dream of you...and yet you came to my life and my dream...so how can i not think of you then....and yet you ignored me....just to make me feel misery......it's not that i'm miserable without you.....it gave me a pain in my mind and heart....please do understand....you do know what....hmmmmm

 

Tuesday, June 19, 2012

it is official geng....

so this is how this going to be....i know it's not that official...but i'm making it official k....hahahha.....so what is that i'm making it offical....hmmm...just that i have a lot of work and i'm gaining weight well according to my clothes that's it...hmmm....so what to do now....i know that i need to finish off my work....but you're making it harder because i miss you...i wanted to be pampered by you...only you....but you keep busying for stuffs....hmmm...anyway....hoping that i'll get your attention...i need that for somehow...really...i need your full atention....i want to be spoiled by you...please do....i miss you....


 

Saturday, May 12, 2012

aaarrrggghhhhhh.....

not everything as what we see it is....sometimes it is much bigger than life itself...ya...bla bla blaaa...i want soem explanation please....why do you do the thing you do?....i mean....we are supposed to cooperate so that our lives would be a bit better somehow....and yet you make things complicated....aaaaarrgghhhh....


 

Sunday, May 6, 2012

i'd like that a lot....

.....okay...this is really i favor a lot k...i mean...i really appreciate it if i get compliment once a lifetime from him....made me on top of the world....i'd really like that a lot...really....i mean...this person never really compliment me or anything...but that one fine day he said it...it was a really sincere one....this time i recognized it....i don't really know if they are sincere or not...but this one...i know....hihihihihi....anyway..there are lots of things that i'd like....maybe later i'll kiss and tell....hahahahahh

 

Monday, April 30, 2012

feeling the butterfly in my stomach....

supposedly, this feelings i have should have been gone years ago.....but funny....it's still here when ever i think about it...hahahahahhaha....anyway....i do love this feeling, just because it made me feel 20years younger...hahahahhahah.....so about suicide....maybe not really my thing...but always thinking about it whenever i'm stressed out or depressed.....anyway....will talk myself out of it.....may god bless me......and all the people i love....


 

Sunday, April 29, 2012

let's start over....

people had me thinking.....somethings are not that complicated....so make it simple and start over.....i like to think that everything has it's reason...god made it that way because he has his reason....so...all i have to do....tawakal.....and let things be on their way....insyaAllah...everything will be fine.....reminding a friend is also a way of reminding ourselves.......


 

Wednesday, April 25, 2012

still here....

adui......sedihnya.......btullah ni bh.....tak bisa aku mlupakan dirimu...huhuhuhuuk...right now still not over things i not over with.......i'm guessing that's why i'm still here...not moving anywhere.....

 


Sunday, April 22, 2012

not loving it....

i'm 100% totally not liking it....not even loving it.....i hate this stress i'm having....always feeling like to blow up....i'm just tired.....and now...how many times have i feel like dying young...but still want to live the life i'm living now...even if it's so stressing and making me depressing about stuff that might not even matter....this is so beyond stupid...i hate it when i can't blow up, when i needed to blow up.....aaargghhh.....


 

Friday, April 20, 2012

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA......

I'M SO STRESSED OUT AND STILL STRESS AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA........................don't he get that....why i'm shutting down.....why  i'm not gaining anymore weight...i really hate it....i don't even want to be here anymore......god just take me with you...i beg of you....I BEG OF YOU....people may not sees how stress and depress i am about stuffs....i juat wanna die.....i pray that i even die in my sleep....i cant handle this anymore.....


Wednesday, April 18, 2012

craving.....

craving....hmmm.....so what else should i be craving for...other than food and him...hmmm....i should be craving for His blessings right...it has been very long....hmm....have not been a very good follower i might say...hmmm....but still i craved for food.....it comforts me the most...
 

Tuesday, April 17, 2012

a little here and there

i've been thinking lately.....it has been a very long since i started to think about....it just slipped my mind from time to time....anyway.....i do need a little bit of this and that to complete my complicated feelings...some people may not established as the things that i supposed i need indeed...but it is the kind of things most of people should have...like conscious....a lot of people may not aware of their inner conscious....some people just go with it......i prefer to do as i feel and please...not really lah..... that may lead me to more confusion in my life....with me knowing it...my conscious always tell me not to go there...and yet...a little bit here and there...it has conclude me to go to that decision.....i have not use the word decision in a long time...i have been following under someone order lately...maybe for the rest of my life that is.....anyway..that little thing here and there made it somehow clear to me to hold things up and let it be, let things the way they are and sooner or later...things may turn up better than i imagine.....because it's a little bit here and a little bit there, there is....so there it is....somethings are meant  to be let...so then let it be...right....crossing my fingers over things...hope things will turn up well.....amin....

Monday, April 16, 2012

i hate this feelings i have....

i really don't like that....FYI...the previous post may not be related to the  previous topic...hahahhaha...anyway...like to conclude..i miss it...and i hate the feelings i have about it...really....i don't like it....why...i don't really know....anyway...need to move on now...some people may not understand this...even if it's about them i'm talking about...so what the hell....
 

I MISS ALL OF IT...

GOSH......THIS CAPS LOCK MAKES ME WONDER...TILL WHEN I'M UPDATING DATA AND DATAS....SO STRESSED OUT....so...let's discuss about this.....updating stuffs.....he's mad at me for being mad at him...and ignoring me was a way of punishing me for being mad at himmm...so what....i mean...really...why on earth would he be mad at me for such silly things that i don't even recognize that made him mad...hmmmm....anyway...things may have been out of hand lately...anyway....the way i handled it...was sleep on it....and it didn't do anything good to it...so next time need to remind myself not to sleep on it....so now....i have tons of works to do....yet still being such a lazy bump about it.....people may not care about what i say and do ...still i like and love it....so what.....


 

Wednesday, April 11, 2012

fragile.....

i'm being this because you made me do it....being fragile...not really my thing.....although some people may see tough at most of the time....but i'm sooooo.... fragile kinda person......but never under estimate that i'm as a weak....as i am strong that you may not realize how strong i can be at most of the time.....yet....my heart is easily break down.....but not my spirit....hihihi....but does me being fragile made you realize how i want you to support me in every way possible?....i want to know that i miss you, i want you.....not as much i need you when i needed you most.....being sulky as i can be....still you ignore me......i want you know that my heart broke to pieces when you did that...however....i'm being strong for you to be there and be strong for me too....i do hope you see that in  me....

 

Monday, April 9, 2012

i know......

so....it has been out there now.....so i know...and somehow i knew that it would not be great of a deal...so what....i'm young at heart....you cant do anything about it except say about it and like i care enough about what you said about me....go to your room....hahhahahah....i mean really.....anyway...at least i know now that at least someone do read this emo blog of mine.....anyway..that's how i like it to be....my feelings that i cant tell much about to anyone in my life.....so i'm bragging it to you...poor you...sorry...i'm so sorry for not thinking of how others would think...sorry about that and sorry about being young at heart...who gives a damn....my.....i really don't want to write longer than i possibly can at this hour...so later....anyway....i miss you...you know who you are...even if you're not reading this....hihihihi....

 

'MAGNOLIA PERT GIVEAWAY 2012'

trying my luck this year.....never ever been lucky but always try to be lucky in everything including love....




hoping someday will be my luck....