not loving it....

i'm 100% totally not liking it....not even loving it.....i hate this stress i'm having....always feeling like to blow up....i'm just tired.....and now...how many times have i feel like dying young...but still want to live the life i'm living now...even if it's so stressing and making me depressing about stuff that might not even matter....this is so beyond stupid...i hate it when i can't blow up, when i needed to blow up.....aaargghhh.....