she told me that she cant help it when it comes to him....she get mad...not mad angry...but mad crazy....she keeps and still talking to herself...telling herself how she been abandoned by him...i told her this manytimes already....i told her that he would hurt her feelings later...if not now...later....i asked her to try...TRY...to forget about him....she said she tried that before...but ended up feeling more for him....made her love him even more....she said that she knows and knew that she cant be with him...she knows that he was not her destiny....knew that he was not meant for her.....yet she hope that one day it would be.....i told her that to hope is to risk pain....pain she's gonna get....all pain...she'll hurt more.....i asked her why she did it....she said...there's a big huge humongous hole in her heart....and she added that her heart was never hers to keep...it has always been with him....it has always been his to keep....then i told her that why did he keep it if he's gonna make it hurt...even hurt more...and then later we make a joke about her story....it's like a drama in the tv....hahahha...anyway i know how badly she's hurt....she never shows it to anyone....not even him...because he cant see that.....deep down she screaming because it hurts her badly....this is due to the act of committing suicide...if she didnt come to her senses and didnt talked about it...i'm sure she be gone by now....nauzubillah....for me...she's such a precious gem...everyone around her feel the love she's spreading....yet he didnt recognize that and didnt care for her.....i know so because i can relate to her feelings about it.....i tell you...that IT HURTS LIKE HELL....dont make us bare it alone....
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