why?

it has been very long time since i've written anything that's on my mind lately on this blog of mine.....so....i guess there's a lot of thing pending right....like my post secret that i wanted to do right....i think more than 30 post..hmmmm...so what shall i do?...hmmmm....let me think about it.....anyway....i'll do them...but not right away...hehhehehe....so this thing...i hate it when you do that to me....why did you do it?why...hmmmm...tell me so that i know.....please.....huhuhuhuhuhu....i'm crying my heart out for you....why did you do that to me?....huhuhuhuhu....

#2

afraid of being alone....wandering if ever you would leave me for someone else...couldn't bear the thought of that..hoping you'll always love me for the rest of our lives...

love you like a love song....

fell in love with this song....

"Love You Like A Love Song"

[Verse 1]
It's been said and done
Every beautiful thought's been already sung
And I guess right now here's another one
So your melody will play on and on, with the best of 'em
You are beautiful, like a dream come alive, incredible
A centerfold miracle, lyrical
You've saved my life again
And I want you to know baby

[Chorus]
I, I love you like a love song, baby
I, I love you like a love song, baby
I, I love you like a love song, baby

And I keep hitting re-peat-peat-peat-peat-peat-peat

I, I love you like a love song, baby
I, I love you like a love song, baby
I, I love you like a love song, baby

And I keep hitting re-peat-peat-peat-peat-peat-peat

[Verse 2]
Constantly, boy you played through my mind like a symphony
There's no way to describe what you do to me
You just do to me, what you do
And it feels like I've been rescued
I've been set free
I am hypnotized by your destiny
You are magical, lyrical, beautiful
You are... And I want you to know baby

[Chorus]
I, I love you like a love song, baby
I, I love you like a love song, baby
I, I love you like a love song, baby

And I keep hitting re-peat-peat-peat-peat-peat-peat

I, I love you like a love song, baby
I, I love you like a love song, baby
I, I love you like a love song, baby

And I keep hitting re-peat-peat-peat-peat-peat-peat

[Bridge]
No one compares
You stand alone, to every record I own
Music to my heart that's what you are
A song that goes on and on

[Chorus]
I, I love you like a love song, baby
I, I love you like a love song, baby
I, I love you like a love song, baby

And I keep hitting re-peat-peat-peat-peat-peat-peat

I, I love you like a love song, baby
I, I love you like a love song, baby
I, I love you like a love song, baby

I love you...like a love song...

postponed....

my secretheart statuswill be postponed....not in the mood...later k....

 

#1

so...today is 27 oct...i'm official.... 20+ +1day....so...i thought i was going to post my thoughts 1 a day...but feeling kinda lazy....so you might be wandering so what was the post before....actually they are too my thoughts...but the thoughts that i thought i was going to publish is a little bit in deep secret thoughts of mine...but thought of it again...i might just keep it to myself....for i think it will cut deepen into someone i know reading this....hehehehhehehe....so...i'll give another thought though...then this would be my first 

#1...it's my fear of people knowing the real me...if only you could be in my shoes....huhuhuhu... 

so maybe later if i ever get lazy...it'd be likely i'll postponed my thoughts....(dont worry. i always jot down i think...hehehe not really)...it's like a thought a day...hehehehheheh....a secret of my mind a day?...hehehhe...nah...we'll see about thatlah kn....hehehheheh...so to be continue....

hmmmm...again....?

hmmmmm...
mna sudah pujuk rayu mu...
aku rindukn pujuk rayumu.....
knapa aku dbiar menangis sendiri....
aku rindukan pelukan pujukanmu......

dian pelangi....

dian pelangi, found her through my sister...hehehehheh...anyway...not trying to take credit though....not sticking with the same n kinda boring ways of wearing the head scarf or hijab (what people nowadays like to call it....)hehehehhe...mmg lama bh udh tu hijad...sja ja...aku ja yang bru dgr...heheheh...anyways....i did try to wear the tudung bawal in other way or style back in 2002-3...i did...but didnt stick with it...coz people were like looking at me like i had my clothes backward...hmmmmmlike to interpret her name...so pelangi=rainbow...so..dian=candle...dian in brunei is lilin...lilin=candle...actually not sure if dian tu bahasa brunei...coz my mom like to use the word replacing the l=candle....so then her name would be candle rainbow....heehhehhehe....so now i'm in love with her...hehehhe..... not the her... but her sense of style....very inspiring....like it very much...below is her blog site address....do enjoy....i did and will always be InsyaAllah....

http://dianrainbow.blogspot.com/

pak ngah....hehehhe

....let's be advised...heheheh...i really like this guy Pak Ngah.....he's full of advices....petua2...mcm2lah....so i like to share his page....here is his page address...it's a facebook page....

https://www.facebook.com/pages/Pak-Ngah-Farit-Ismeth-Emir/114166781930057 

so do enjoy this page.....

888

finally...hehehehheh....not that i'm obsessed with it...just forgot and it slipped my mind.....i really like this number actually...just not obsessed with it...again...hehehehhe....now just that this num appear in my total page views...so i like it soooo much....not very much... so here it is...hehehhehe....my 888....lupa pula 555...hehehehhe....terlepas udh buku fevret....buku tiga 5...hehehehhe....

so far so good....?

so...how things are now?i dont know what to say about it...so far so good?...ngamka itu...hmmm...i gues so far so good lah.....so how many people are actually reading this emo blog of mine?...so....so far i cant confidently say 2 people that i know very well....not that well lah....hehehhehe...other than that, i dont know...hmmmm....it's 10am and i'm sleepy as hell...huhuhuhuuuh....so hoping you know....miracle...hehehehhe

i'm not...but i'm....

okay i like this quote not that very much.....but not my original.....hehheheheh..i got this from 'LoOnEr_28 - facebook'

I'm Not Angry Because We Broke Up, I'm Sad Because I Can't Let You Go.. I'm Not Angry At You For Not Loving Me, I'm Angry With Me For Still Loving You.. ... I'm Not Angry That I Lost You, I'm Sad Because I Once Had You.. I'm Not Angry That I Can't Have You, I'm Sad Because I Know What I'm Missing.. I'm Not Angry That You've Moved On, I'm Sad Because I Can't.. I'm Not Angry That You Won't Come Back, I'm Sad Because I Keep Hoping You Will.. I'm Not Angry Because I Hate You And Don't Want To, I'm Sad Because I Miss You And I Love You..

starting fresh.....

starting fresh?
so....what's it like to start fresh?....do i need to start fresh of start new life?....now i'm confuse.....so confuse.....feeling lazy again when it comes to think of you.....hmmmm.saw an emo movie this afternoon...a Philippines' movie....entitled 'one more chance'...  there's a quote that i dont remember much about....but it saying about being apart to grow up and that it takes two grown ups to make a relationship work....and there's more quote that i love...but dont remember...heheheh...love the movie...even though i only saw the 20 minutes last of it.......and i like to give some thoughts about it and us all....

badly.....

so badly.....very badly hoping for you to miss me as much and more than i miss you...
hoping so badly to get your attention....hoping you'll see me...just me....

alhamdullilah....i'm fine for now....

 salam...so today was another alright day...not that excited to tell about it in here...but thankful enough to be in your heart.....some people like to think that i'm this and i'm that....didnt care much about it...though maybe a little disappointment...hmmmm....so am i all that?....hmmm..makes me wonder sometimes...whether i'm worth it or not.....i'm not sure what i'm babbling about...hmmmm...at this point and minute and seconds....i dont feel good....not fine but thankful enough to have my moon around me....mind and spiritual ....

try this....

enjoying listening to song... trying to find sad songs to console my heartache....

u know it all?

king bed? queen bed? single bed.....

patah 1000

heheheheh

berdua bersatu....

Kenapa cinta kita
Selalu saja diduga
Bagai ada tak merestu
Kita berdua bersatu
Atau mungkin kau dan aku
Ditakdir untuk berpisah
Walaupun melawan arus
Kita berdua bersatu

Seringkaliku mendengar
Patah tumbuh hilang berganti
Tetapiku tidak mahu
Cinta selain darimu
Jika denganmu salah
Kutak mahu yang benar
Jika denganmu rebah biarlah kutercalar
Walau dilanda badai
Kusanggup kerna ku mahu
Kita berdua bersatu
Jika denganmu kabur
Kutak mahu yang jelas
Jika denganmu hanyut
Biarlah aku lemas
Walau dilanda ribut
Kusanggup kerna ku mahu
Kita berdua bersatu

thank you...

so...today i feel a little more happiness in my heart...tq my dearest.....i appreciate it so much....syg my izz....mcmna sja gayamu...hehehehheheh....your smiles made my day...your laugh made my life....

hello

helllllloooo....
my loyal readers and my silent readers.....miss me?...hehehhehehhehe
well...there's a big reason i'm posting what i'm about to post today....
i was unhappy with somethings that were the way they are...now there's a shine...and you give my that shine....tq so much....hoping there's always a shine for me everyday.....a shine that can give the warmth of the sun.....hoping the sun shine my day and night through the the shine that the sun gave the moon....and also hoping that i wont be talking to my moon alone.....

tomorrow...

hating tomorrow for i will never see you again....
loving tomorrow for surprises it brings....

it has been a while now....

hmmmm...so it has been a while now....from filling in this blog of mine...not that i have been very busy...just feeling like getting away from all the feelings i have....hoping you notice that...hmmm...how many days have it been?....a while right.....so hoping you know i miss so much......i left out the word 'you' there for so many reasons....so much it hurts...and you know that too riight....hmmmmso...enough about that...like to talk about my moon....he's not a moon anymore...everyone keep saying he's fat...very upset about that....anyway...i'm happy though....i love him so much....so much.....okay...i'm off for now....like to enjoy watching tv...hehhehehh

indahnya.....bila dicintai....

hmmmm.....so how to say this....?

penghujung cintaku...

i fell in love with this song....





 

count on me....count on you?

fall in love with this song the moment i heard it....i like it...love the songs...love the lyrics....
so can i count on you like you can count on me...coz you know i'll always be there for you




If you ever find yourself stuck in the middle of the sea
I'll sail the world to find you
If you ever find yourself lost in the dark and you can't see
I'll be the light to guide you

Find out what we're made of
What we are called to help our friends in need

You can count on me like one, two, three
I'll be there and I know when I need it
I can count on you like four, three, two
And you'll be there 'cause that's what friends
Are supposed to do, oh yeah, ooh, ooh

If you toss and you turn and you just can't fall asleep
I'll sing a song beside you
And if you ever forget how much you really mean to me
Everyday I will remind you

Find out what we're made of
What we are called to help our friends in need

You can count on me like one, two, three
I'll be there and I know when I need it
I can count on you like four, three, two
And you'll be there 'cause that's what friends
Are supposed to do, oh yeah, ooh, ooh, yeah, yeah

You'll always have my shoulder when you cry
I'll never let go, never say goodbye

You can count on me like one, two, three
I'll be there and I know when I need it
I can count on you like four, three, two
And you'll be there 'cause that's what friends
Are supposed to do, oh yeah, ooh, ooh

You can count on me 'cause I can count on you

hoping to find love...

hoping....
hoping to find love....
hoping to find you....

i hope to...

i hope this month will bring me peace...
i hope that this month i will able to have less thoughts of you....
we'll see how it goes....
i hope to see you in my dreams....
i hope to see you in front of me....
i hope to see and look in your eyes....
so that i'll see what and who's in your eyes...
i hope that i'll be in your heart....
forever....

it has been a while right....

well...how long has it been now...i still miss you though....hoping you do too....

i remember again...

i went there today...and i remember...you....funny right.....out of all the place...i went there today...(24july2011)...hmmmmm...kinda hoping so much....but rather not...it'll hurt my feelings more....not that i remember...it just that it remind me so much of us....

help me...

dear my readers....
please help me....
help me tell him that i miss him so much...
help me tell him that i'm lost without him...
help me tell him that i need him so...
help me tell him that i'm nothing without him...
please help me....
help me tell him to understand me...
help me tell him to look in my eyes and tell me that he misses me too
help me tell him to love me so...
help me tell him to hold me tight in his arms...
it's cold nights and days without him....
because there's no sun to warm me....(the sun is him)

it's dark nights and days without him....
because there's no moon to light my way....
and there's no sun to light my day...

i hate this...

i hate this feelings i have for you...they're too many....most of them you ignore with not even looking at it...it sad because it hurts badly....my heart wounded because of it....please...i need you....

i miss you...

why can't you see that?...i miss you terribly....do you miss me too?....

miss you.....

i think it's true when some people said that you're not the one.....yet i ignore it all...i believe that somehow you are my match made in heaven....hope you'll always love me no matter how i am to you....

nite love....

nite love....miss you love....

fight....

now...did we have a fight?have ever have a fight?well of course we do and did...who didn't...even if we didn't please...let's talk about it...don't keep it silence.....from not having a fight we might ended up having one....so...why ever did we fight?over what?is it silly things that you're not approve of?is it something that i dissatisfied about?...so why did ever we do it?....there's a saying..from 3 abdul movie of the late tan sri p ramle....sedangkan lidah lagi tergigit, apa pula suami isteri...hmmmm...let me explain....everyone will a fights...dont matter how closed they are...they will have a fight...there might be a big fight...or a small fight...you decide that....so what we do about it then?....ha ah....buang yang keruh ambil yang jernih, baru teguh peribadi....hehehhe..it is a song actually..and i like it very much...hehehehe...meaning....throw away all the bad things and take the good ones...the bad ones we learn from it....so that's all i got to say for now....happy reading...

silence

i got this from a friend....who says....silence makes the fight becomes longer....i agree with her.....for me communicate is very important in a relationship....any relationship...mom, dad, siblings, husband, kid, lover, friend.....everybody is involved....it includes everybody in this life....so...why the silence you gave to me?...do i deserve a silence from you?...did you know that the silence between us have killed me long time ago....?

i'll never...

i'll never stop waiting....
i'll never stop looking...
i'll never stop thinking...

i'll never stop missing...
i'll never stop loving you....
no matter what people might say....

i'll never stop waiting....
i'll never stop looking...
i'll never stop thin missing...
i'll never stop

666

just now that i looked my total page views....666...some believe this no is a satanic no...hmmm....i dont really know what does it represent...but from a movie that i saw once...advocate's devil...right?i'm not so sure...anyway...saying that this no represents the satan himself....correct me if i'm wrong...hehehhe...
got this from wiki....

The Number of the Beast

666 is often associated with the Devil.

Main article: Number of the Beast

In the New Testament, the Book of Revelation (13:17-18) cryptically asserts 666 to be "the number of a man," associated with the beast, an antagonistic creature that appears briefly about two-thirds into the apocalyptic vision.
In modern popular culture, 666 has become one of the most widely recognized symbols for the Antichrist or, alternatively, the Devil. Earnest references to 666 occur both among apocalypticist Christian groups and in explicitly anti-Christian subcultures. An appearance of the number 666 in contemporary Western art or literature is, more likely than not, an intentional reference to this number of the Beast symbolism. Such popular references to 666 are too numerous to list.
It is not uncommon to see the symbolic role of the integer 666 transferred to the digit sequence 6-6-6. Some people take the Satanic associations of 666 so seriously that they actively avoid things related to 666 or the digits 6-6-6. This is known as hexakosioihexekontahexaphobia.


so what do you think...kinda scary right....in mathematics...is only a no...that comes before 667 and comes after 665....so you be the judge of that....

i'm sorry...

i'm sad.....i lost it...i'm sorry...it's broken....not like my heart....it cannot be mended....it's broken to pieces...hope it'll get better...and be better...but i know deep down in my heart...i'll never get it fix...hope you wont be angry about it....

i need you...

i hate it....i really hate it when you ignore me.....

Happiness comes from within and from how you view the world you find yourself in. You can either change the situation you are in, or change the way you feel about it; those are always your only two choices.

i'm a bit tired lately....

tired....so much work...so many things to think about...yet not thinking about it still it keeps coming to my mind....i can't help it....you know that.....i hope you're reading this....i dont have much time now....hope you'l know that i'll always be waiting for you....