losing it....

dont take it the wrong way k.....not about me losing myself to the work stress...but that i was still thinking and counting the numbers of people that claimed me losing weight...not that i'm thrilled...i do...just that..i tend to eat more than usual...huhuhu...and would freak me out sometimes....so in the end my weight remain the same.....although people may still thought that i'm losing weight....hehehehe....so...but..actually...i am losing it...i cant handle stress....because in the end i ended up not doing anything...then none of my work is done...not even halfway done....huuhuhuh...what to do....i need some help to manage my work arrangement i think...huhuhuh...help me.....

 

so much.....

there's is so much of the so much things...hihihi......so much in love...so much hate.....so much work...huhuuuh....so much work for these days....then...i have so much stress....people around me dont see that as much of nothing.....sometimes....i really feel like dying....staying up late...but then in the end...it is still not done....so then...it's another dying day to finish up that task....even though that i'm light headed now...but i'.m still heavily burden with so much tasks...not even done with others...then come another task...huhuuhhu.....people may see me not working...but i'm working my ass, brain and heart off....hopefully i'll survive it.....

 

hoping for you to always love me no matter what....

'I LOVE YOU'.... that would be the three words that has magical power to soothe every hearts to melt....i love you...this could also destroy a person if he or she heard it from the person he or she loves for someone else other than him or her...i don't want that to happen to me....that would break my heart...just by you telling me that you love someone else...that would tear me apart....hoping you'll always love me no matter what....

i wonder how this feeling i have for you exist....thank god....for you i've live on....

being so lazy...

being so lazy nowadays are my trend of showing off my talent being lazy....and that would be protesting against my own work...hihihih....i really don't have the mood to do them all....it has been piling up that i don't even know where to start or even have the heart to them.....i'm just being a lazy bum....hihihihi....

so then...this occur to me that i should manage my time for job and self and family....so....yet...i haven't really decided yet as i'm being so much in lazy...also in love with my boys.....hoping you're always remember that i'm doing the best i can to love more than anything....hopefully until my time comes....

lately i have been feeling the stress over work that has and still is piling up....i just hope that this doesn't effect my health and mentally....somehow...just thinking about all the work make me nervous that i think i might just die from doing all that work....i really do feel that....well...i guess i'm to have my sleep....and oh ya...i also been lacking lots of sleep...and feel so exhausted....and making me feel so lazy....huhuhuhu....

 

new template for me...

as i was browsing through my blogger draft....there it was tempting to press and try a new template...then i try it out but then i accidentally and innocently press apply...huhuhuhu...then there it goes my old template with my dear photo of my loved ones...huhuhuhuuh...so...anyway...this new one seems not bad at all...so i'm good with this template...hihiihh

so....i'd like to talk about today.....today...i'm so mentally and emotionally tired....very exhausting....so many thing to be done...in the end...i refuse....refuse to do it all....and i ended up doing something else other than my work.....stress....a word that i'd like to avoid using everyday but ended up using it anyway....hahahahha.....this is so ****** **....(not allowing to curse)hihihi.....

lately...people been accusing me losing weight......hihih...tq...although i weigh myself and still the same numbers appear....hmmm....i don't know what happened actually...maybe because of my work stress...hmmmm....i really want and wish for a nice vacation from all of this hectic work.....but like to do all the best for myself....may i have a bless health....