a bit better

today....i'm a bit alright for now....my day went a smooth as i wanted....and that kinda made my day a bit brighter than yesterday....yesterday was worst....wanna scream over it...cant....(afraid that i'll wake him up..hihihi)i feel funny about it for a while....so today i'm not that stressed out yet.....so much pressure i felt nowadays.....it's really killing me.....i do feel like dying=want to die actually....hmmm.....i do think i need to see a psychiatrist.. i really do think so.....so help me god from doing anything that will harm myself....

not happy....

today not so great either.....i really do hate YOU....feeling like dying already...so help me god......dont know who else to consult to.....I'M NOT HAPPY.....

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so.....so long right....?it really has been so long since i wrote anything for myblog...so no one really reading this anymore...anyhow.....so many thing bulk up in my mind and heart...so many that it has been bothering me that i cried just now....it hurts just thinking about.....also feeling like giving up....i know i you do read this....you probably going to categorized my blog and words as an emo blog....aaa...i dont really care.....it's so serious that i've been thinking not once but many doing actually doing a suicide...crazy right....it's so crazy...i cant think straight anymore.....aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.................i'm out cant do this now.....