#1

so...today is 27 oct...i'm official.... 20+ +1day....so...i thought i was going to post my thoughts 1 a day...but feeling kinda lazy....so you might be wandering so what was the post before....actually they are too my thoughts...but the thoughts that i thought i was going to publish is a little bit in deep secret thoughts of mine...but thought of it again...i might just keep it to myself....for i think it will cut deepen into someone i know reading this....hehehehhehehe....so...i'll give another thought though...then this would be my first 

#1...it's my fear of people knowing the real me...if only you could be in my shoes....huhuhuhu... 

so maybe later if i ever get lazy...it'd be likely i'll postponed my thoughts....(dont worry. i always jot down i think...hehehe not really)...it's like a thought a day...hehehehheheh....a secret of my mind a day?...hehehhe...nah...we'll see about thatlah kn....hehehheheh...so to be continue....

hmmmm...again....?

hmmmmm...
mna sudah pujuk rayu mu...
aku rindukn pujuk rayumu.....
knapa aku dbiar menangis sendiri....
aku rindukan pelukan pujukanmu......

dian pelangi....

dian pelangi, found her through my sister...hehehehheh...anyway...not trying to take credit though....not sticking with the same n kinda boring ways of wearing the head scarf or hijab (what people nowadays like to call it....)hehehehhe...mmg lama bh udh tu hijad...sja ja...aku ja yang bru dgr...heheheh...anyways....i did try to wear the tudung bawal in other way or style back in 2002-3...i did...but didnt stick with it...coz people were like looking at me like i had my clothes backward...hmmmmmlike to interpret her name...so pelangi=rainbow...so..dian=candle...dian in brunei is lilin...lilin=candle...actually not sure if dian tu bahasa brunei...coz my mom like to use the word replacing the l=candle....so then her name would be candle rainbow....heehhehhehe....so now i'm in love with her...hehehhe..... not the her... but her sense of style....very inspiring....like it very much...below is her blog site address....do enjoy....i did and will always be InsyaAllah....

http://dianrainbow.blogspot.com/

pak ngah....hehehhe

....let's be advised...heheheh...i really like this guy Pak Ngah.....he's full of advices....petua2...mcm2lah....so i like to share his page....here is his page address...it's a facebook page....

https://www.facebook.com/pages/Pak-Ngah-Farit-Ismeth-Emir/114166781930057 

so do enjoy this page.....

888

finally...hehehehheh....not that i'm obsessed with it...just forgot and it slipped my mind.....i really like this number actually...just not obsessed with it...again...hehehehhe....now just that this num appear in my total page views...so i like it soooo much....not very much... so here it is...hehehhehe....my 888....lupa pula 555...hehehehhe....terlepas udh buku fevret....buku tiga 5...hehehehhe....

so far so good....?

so...how things are now?i dont know what to say about it...so far so good?...ngamka itu...hmmm...i gues so far so good lah.....so how many people are actually reading this emo blog of mine?...so....so far i cant confidently say 2 people that i know very well....not that well lah....hehehhehe...other than that, i dont know...hmmmm....it's 10am and i'm sleepy as hell...huhuhuhuuuh....so hoping you know....miracle...hehehehhe

i'm not...but i'm....

okay i like this quote not that very much.....but not my original.....hehheheheh..i got this from 'LoOnEr_28 - facebook'

I'm Not Angry Because We Broke Up, I'm Sad Because I Can't Let You Go.. I'm Not Angry At You For Not Loving Me, I'm Angry With Me For Still Loving You.. ... I'm Not Angry That I Lost You, I'm Sad Because I Once Had You.. I'm Not Angry That I Can't Have You, I'm Sad Because I Know What I'm Missing.. I'm Not Angry That You've Moved On, I'm Sad Because I Can't.. I'm Not Angry That You Won't Come Back, I'm Sad Because I Keep Hoping You Will.. I'm Not Angry Because I Hate You And Don't Want To, I'm Sad Because I Miss You And I Love You..

starting fresh.....

starting fresh?
so....what's it like to start fresh?....do i need to start fresh of start new life?....now i'm confuse.....so confuse.....feeling lazy again when it comes to think of you.....hmmmm.saw an emo movie this afternoon...a Philippines' movie....entitled 'one more chance'...  there's a quote that i dont remember much about....but it saying about being apart to grow up and that it takes two grown ups to make a relationship work....and there's more quote that i love...but dont remember...heheheh...love the movie...even though i only saw the 20 minutes last of it.......and i like to give some thoughts about it and us all....

badly.....

so badly.....very badly hoping for you to miss me as much and more than i miss you...
hoping so badly to get your attention....hoping you'll see me...just me....

alhamdullilah....i'm fine for now....

 salam...so today was another alright day...not that excited to tell about it in here...but thankful enough to be in your heart.....some people like to think that i'm this and i'm that....didnt care much about it...though maybe a little disappointment...hmmmm....so am i all that?....hmmm..makes me wonder sometimes...whether i'm worth it or not.....i'm not sure what i'm babbling about...hmmmm...at this point and minute and seconds....i dont feel good....not fine but thankful enough to have my moon around me....mind and spiritual ....