it has been a while right....

well...how long has it been now...i still miss you though....hoping you do too....

i remember again...

i went there today...and i remember...you....funny right.....out of all the place...i went there today...(24july2011)...hmmmmm...kinda hoping so much....but rather not...it'll hurt my feelings more....not that i remember...it just that it remind me so much of us....

help me...

dear my readers....
please help me....
help me tell him that i miss him so much...
help me tell him that i'm lost without him...
help me tell him that i need him so...
help me tell him that i'm nothing without him...
please help me....
help me tell him to understand me...
help me tell him to look in my eyes and tell me that he misses me too
help me tell him to love me so...
help me tell him to hold me tight in his arms...
it's cold nights and days without him....
because there's no sun to warm me....(the sun is him)

it's dark nights and days without him....
because there's no moon to light my way....
and there's no sun to light my day...

i hate this...

i hate this feelings i have for you...they're too many....most of them you ignore with not even looking at it...it sad because it hurts badly....my heart wounded because of it....please...i need you....

i miss you...

why can't you see that?...i miss you terribly....do you miss me too?....

miss you.....

i think it's true when some people said that you're not the one.....yet i ignore it all...i believe that somehow you are my match made in heaven....hope you'll always love me no matter how i am to you....

nite love....

nite love....miss you love....

fight....

now...did we have a fight?have ever have a fight?well of course we do and did...who didn't...even if we didn't please...let's talk about it...don't keep it silence.....from not having a fight we might ended up having one....so...why ever did we fight?over what?is it silly things that you're not approve of?is it something that i dissatisfied about?...so why did ever we do it?....there's a saying..from 3 abdul movie of the late tan sri p ramle....sedangkan lidah lagi tergigit, apa pula suami isteri...hmmmm...let me explain....everyone will a fights...dont matter how closed they are...they will have a fight...there might be a big fight...or a small fight...you decide that....so what we do about it then?....ha ah....buang yang keruh ambil yang jernih, baru teguh peribadi....hehehhe..it is a song actually..and i like it very much...hehehehe...meaning....throw away all the bad things and take the good ones...the bad ones we learn from it....so that's all i got to say for now....happy reading...

silence

i got this from a friend....who says....silence makes the fight becomes longer....i agree with her.....for me communicate is very important in a relationship....any relationship...mom, dad, siblings, husband, kid, lover, friend.....everybody is involved....it includes everybody in this life....so...why the silence you gave to me?...do i deserve a silence from you?...did you know that the silence between us have killed me long time ago....?

i'll never...

i'll never stop waiting....
i'll never stop looking...
i'll never stop thinking...

i'll never stop missing...
i'll never stop loving you....
no matter what people might say....

i'll never stop waiting....
i'll never stop looking...
i'll never stop thin missing...
i'll never stop

666

just now that i looked my total page views....666...some believe this no is a satanic no...hmmm....i dont really know what does it represent...but from a movie that i saw once...advocate's devil...right?i'm not so sure...anyway...saying that this no represents the satan himself....correct me if i'm wrong...hehehhe...
got this from wiki....

The Number of the Beast

666 is often associated with the Devil.

Main article: Number of the Beast

In the New Testament, the Book of Revelation (13:17-18) cryptically asserts 666 to be "the number of a man," associated with the beast, an antagonistic creature that appears briefly about two-thirds into the apocalyptic vision.
In modern popular culture, 666 has become one of the most widely recognized symbols for the Antichrist or, alternatively, the Devil. Earnest references to 666 occur both among apocalypticist Christian groups and in explicitly anti-Christian subcultures. An appearance of the number 666 in contemporary Western art or literature is, more likely than not, an intentional reference to this number of the Beast symbolism. Such popular references to 666 are too numerous to list.
It is not uncommon to see the symbolic role of the integer 666 transferred to the digit sequence 6-6-6. Some people take the Satanic associations of 666 so seriously that they actively avoid things related to 666 or the digits 6-6-6. This is known as hexakosioihexekontahexaphobia.


so what do you think...kinda scary right....in mathematics...is only a no...that comes before 667 and comes after 665....so you be the judge of that....

i'm sorry...

i'm sad.....i lost it...i'm sorry...it's broken....not like my heart....it cannot be mended....it's broken to pieces...hope it'll get better...and be better...but i know deep down in my heart...i'll never get it fix...hope you wont be angry about it....

i need you...

i hate it....i really hate it when you ignore me.....

Happiness comes from within and from how you view the world you find yourself in. You can either change the situation you are in, or change the way you feel about it; those are always your only two choices.

i'm a bit tired lately....

tired....so much work...so many things to think about...yet not thinking about it still it keeps coming to my mind....i can't help it....you know that.....i hope you're reading this....i dont have much time now....hope you'l know that i'll always be waiting for you....

stop threatening me.....

it hurts me even more...when you did that....
stop threatening me....
stop threatening to leave me...
or i'll pray to god so hard to take my life away from you....
stop threatening me....

raining makes me missing you....

it's raining now....miss you...do you miss me?....right this time my mind is playing around with me....thinking of things that shouldn't be in my head....right?so what should i be doing.....hmmmmm...i'm trying to have new hobby...but don't think i can afford it...money is not really the question.....it's the time actually...i dont think i have that much time...nor i have the time to ever see....hmmmm....i'll think about that hobby....

hoping for a new start....

wanting to change is a very big step for someone like me.....i might dont have the courage to do it....even to think of it make me think not to change....afraid of what would it be like if i do change....would people around me still love me they way they do before or that will change to....so i'm hoping for a new beginning...a fresh start...but i dont know where to start....i have to think it over....dont know till when....i'm not changing for anyone else....but me....i have this idea that i might not be good enough for you....i know i'm not....i'm sorry for that...

that should be me....

Everybody's laughing in my mind,
Rumors spreading 'bout this other guy,
Do you do what you did when you
did with me?
Does he love you the way I can?
Did you forget all the plans
that you made with me?
'cause baby I didn't!


That should be me,
Holdin' your hand,
That should be me
Makin' you laugh,
That should be me,
This is so sad,
That should be me,
That should be me,
That should be me,
Feelin' your kiss,
That should be me,
Buyin' you gifts,
This is so wrong,
I can't go on,
Till you believe that,
That should be me

Ouuuuuuu
ouuuuuuuu

That should be me,
Yeah,
You said you needed a little time
For my mistakes,
It's funny how you used that time
To have me replaced,
Did you think that I wouldn't see you out at the movies
Whatcha doin' to me,
You're takin' him where we used to go,
Now if you're tryin' to break my heart,
It's working 'cause you know that,...

Chorus:

That should be me,
Holdin' your hand,
That should be me,
Makin' you laugh,
That should be me,
This is so sad,
That should be me,
That should be me,
That should be me,
Feelin' your kiss,
That should be me ,
Buyin' you gifts,
This is so wrong,
I can't go on,
Till you believe that,
That should be me

I need to know should I fight
For our love for this long
It's getting harder to shield
This pain in my heart!!!

Chorus:
That should be me,
Holdin' your hand,
That should be me,
Makin' you laugh,
That should be me,
This is so sad,
That should be me,
That should be me,
That should be me,
Feelin' your kiss,
That should be me,
Buyin' you gifts,
This is so wrong,
I can't go on,
Till you believe that,
That should be me,
Holding your hand,
That should be me,
Oh i makin you laugh, oh Baby,
That should be me,
(that should be me givin you flowers)
That should be me,
Talking by hours,that should be me, that should be me,
that should be me

Never should've let you go,!
I never should've let you go,!
That should be me!! <3 Never should've let you go That should be me!!<3

for moms and dads...

a poem written by my student...asiya ishaq

my sweet mum and dad

dearest people in the world you are
when our clothes were teared
you were the one to sew.

we are like flowers to you
but you are our petals
which covered every morning with dew.

you were the one who taught us
the first step we ever had
and you are the one who taught us
the words we can never forget.

all my tests are easier because of you
you grew me up with such a nice heart
that i will never give up...

i like this poem a lot..it touches my heart....for me..her words were wonderful...kinda explain it all what we should have for our beloved parents....