leap year....

it's leap year...yeay...finally i have been waiting for this....so it has been 4 years now.....huhuhuhuuh.....and this leap year....i get to celebrate it 3days...28, 29 feb and 1 march....but he didn't remember...i dont know....maybe we got caught up with so much work.....huhuhuhu....anyway....happy anniversary to us bang...i love u and ours...
 

how...?

as i woke up today...and every other day....i miss you even more....it hurts my pride to see myself missing so much everyday.....hoping you'll be missing me too....hoping you'll be remembering me all of your time.....i want for you always to be reminded or me.....i know that's a bit to selfish of me...but i can't help it...this is my heart talking....now my head talking to me.....he's always beside you even if you didn't notice it.....you're waking up next to him.....remember that he will always love you.....remember that...no one else will love you like he does...remember that.....
 

still confuse...

so....some people do believe in love and second chances....so now what do i think about it?...hmmmm..so do i really want second chances in love?...hmmm..maybe that depends....on how do i want to be....but i rather want second chances in life...so that i wont be making any bad choices...not that my choices now are bad....just that i want it to be more alright not i dont want any regrets later...i think.....as in love.....i may not want it so much...i kinda over thinking about it....thinking that maybe he's been lying all the time that we were together....or maybe that he loved me with all his heart and just couldnt fight for my love anymore....i like to think like that sometimes..but in reality...he left me....he left me....so then... these question of what if have been bothering for most of the time...feeling guilty having so much happiness that it hurt most of the time......then feeling guilty having such fidelity in feelings....hmmmm....i think most of the time i'm very complicated in heart...that probably because i tend to over thinking stuffs about my feelings.....aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa....so confuse....sooooo...hurt.....

stresssss.....?

so it's now or never....i'm so caught up with my tons of work...i kinda doze off from writing for a while....and like the other time also...it has been a long time since i write in this blog of mine...lately i have been busy and stressing out about my tons of work....it's just never ending story for my job......see...i love my job...but with me doing something else other than my real job...i kinda left out my real job for unnecessary work which oblige me for doing so as they say that it's part of my job....so.. this my other job than real job has been tiring me out....i need some advice on how to really handle my job stress....?any suggestion readers?hihihih....